That was the second time I drank beer. I was upset and cursing myself for all what I had done for her. I was angry at myself. I even cried. It was almost one year since we met. I didn't give up any chance of understanding her. She too understood me but was not taking my feelings seriously. But on the other side I was melting and burning in her love. Finally I decided to not to talk with her ever. I went to Suresh and told him all about what happened. Suresh was the person who always supported me timely and encouraged my faith in love. When I told him everything even he advised me to leave her. My mind took his advice seriously but heart was in pain. Suresh was an occasional drinker. I told him I want to drink so that my soul get relaxed. That soul who always hated drinkers. We bought two bottles of beer with chips and sat inside Suresh's room. He played soft music on his speakers. The light was dim. He made all the environment set. After drinking I headed toward my room. He followed me saying I would fall down. He dropped me to my room and again I started to open my broken heart's pieces and told him my decision. He understood my situation completely and forced me to make the last call. I called but nobody answered. Suresh went to his room. I was alone and in some effect of beer. I tried again because I badly wanted to hear her voice. This time she picked up.
" Hi"
"Hey"
"You didn't called me from the whole day. what happened??? Everything alright???"
She didn't know what she has done to me. Her last words again came in my head and a wave of pain striked into it. So I started directly.
"This is the last time I am asking you and I won't be there in your life more to ask you again"
After this  told her everything, every moment we had spent together and my efforts behind those moments to make them special ones. I started from the first day and ended at the last talk we had.
She was silent, just listening to me.
" Either you will be mine or I will be gone from your life forever and today forever means forever"
" I will think over it. I need time"
" I can't give you months or years like I had given you before. Tell me now"
" OK I will tell you tomorrow"
" I will call you in the morning, bye"
That night I didn't wished her good night. That was the first time in  nine months...

               to be continued....

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We get hurt , when we expect. Expectation is the main cause for broken heart. The love and care we give to special ones are expected to come with an  interest. Expectations are the producers of tears. Its being said "Don't expect, Just give". But don't we have the right to be loved as we love them ? Not equal but at least some. I don't know why people ignore those who care them and care who doesn't even think about them. This whole thing is going in the chain. The first person loves second who don't even give him a damn  the second loves third who loves forth and go on... So what should we do to break this chain ? We have an option, everybody has an option i.e. to love the person who loves us and this is how love stories are made. So "Have expectations, Its your right but from the person who deserves you and values your love"

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"Yes ! I care for her, care than this damn whole world. If she will ever get upset, I will make her smile even if I need to loose my happiness. My soul is meant for her. She lives in it. She owns it. She is my love, my God , my passion. She is that star, the constant one, twinkling in the sky, who inspires me to decorate the words with feelings in the heart and take me with herself to the new but still the known world. "

A DIALOGUE FROM MY NEXT STORY

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If the root of a plant is weak, how can we be sure about the fruit. The same thing is applicable in relationships. When the foundation or initiation is not strong and is doubt able, how can we say that relationship will last forever. True lover is hard to find in this world. Love is just a game for many and is equally played from both sides. I have a recent example, a fresh one. Now a days I am residing in Chandigarh as P.G. Two guys are staying in the room next to mine. They are free monkeys who came to the city for aish. They threw their mobile numbers tied on a stone toward a house just opposite to mine in which Girls reside as Paying Guests. Next day they got a call from a girl from that opposite house. After couple of hours, one of them got into a relationship, how fast na. Exactly after 7 days, that girl and the boy slept together. After 15 days, the boys went back to their hometown, ended that LOVE. And the girl lives happily......wow
This is how relationship works in this fast moving world. Coming back to the topic.....
If we can't trust a person before a relationship, we should give him/her a chance. But if we already know that person who has bad past records and not trust worthy then we should not  take a risk when the reality is just in front of the eyes. Don't make yourself regret after weeks or months.
Keep one thing in mind that " we get a virgin-heart only once in a life, once its broken, then the heart is just a heart...."

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I don't know why we stopped talking but someone or something is behind that which I can't even guess. According to my friend even girls can't understand girls then how can I. When someone is dead in the hospital and doctor says" We tried a lot but we can't save him/her". This same thing is going inside my head that I tried to save our friendship a lot but can't save it from sinking. Another chapter closed itself. Should I move or not? why should I wait?. i know what to do. I should go for a new page, a blank one and should try to write something, something which lasts forever. But my another side responds to wait. may be God is testing me again. May be he has some surprise. But when is he going to reveal it???, after seeing the ashes of my heart. Everyday I read my horoscope, I put oil to my hope's lamp . Oh dear God I am tired of your games and here I am lying helpless. Take the heart out of me and bury it in the loveyard next to Romeo-Juliet, Mirza-Sahiba, Sassi-Punnu, Heer-Ranjha, Laila-Majnu and write on my love stone " HERE LIES THE IMMORTAL  HEART OF A LOVER"

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